Kazuki's sort of a deep mess about Sion because a lot of things Sion does and says rubs him the wrong way, but at the same time he is hopelessly in love and Sion can see RIGHT THROUGH HIS EMOTIONS it's really terrible!! And even if he and Mikado have talked about being unable to help being in love with people from home, he still feels guilty about being in love with Sion-- especially because Sion was the one who told him off for ~taking advantage~ and leading people on before, with Naoto, and in a certain respect Sion is right about Kazuki pushing him away because... Kazuki doesn't like that complicated mess of a situation! And he doesn't want to take advantage of Sion, he wants Sion to be able to get distance and have a chance to grow apart from Kazuki and fall in love with someone else, he wants Sion to be happy, so a lot of Kazuki's tsundereness at Sion was... essentially being cruel as a kindness.
And then Sion persisted anyway and a bunch of other stuff happened to Kazuki's psyche and personality and identity issues, which lead him to being more frustrated and such. Sion basically hit the nail on the head, about Kazuki purposefully isolating himself. He got noticeably better when Mikado was back to normal though, because, gosh, who knew that being actually loved and cherished by your boyfriend in a way you can feel with real emotion would help with your identity and AM I JUST A CONVENIENCE AND BEING USED and stuff issues!!
And then Sion basically completely confirmed he's in love with Kazuki and Kazuki just can't fight it anymore. But he's also still very frustrated and his way of communicating with Sion in the first place is built on the basis of trying to mutually steamroll each other, so they constantly butt heads. Kazuki has been quite influenced by Mikado and his desire to, y'know, see Sion EXPRESS HIMSELF that he's just out and out pushing and being invasive and things. Wh...ich backfires. And he feels like that even though Sion can see through him, he doesn't really GET Kazuki nonetheless.
I think the recent thread might've helped a lot though idk what do you think, I just sort of spewed feelings.
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And then Sion persisted anyway and a bunch of other stuff happened to Kazuki's psyche and personality and identity issues, which lead him to being more frustrated and such. Sion basically hit the nail on the head, about Kazuki purposefully isolating himself. He got noticeably better when Mikado was back to normal though, because, gosh, who knew that being actually loved and cherished by your boyfriend in a way you can feel with real emotion would help with your identity and AM I JUST A CONVENIENCE AND BEING USED and stuff issues!!
And then Sion basically completely confirmed he's in love with Kazuki and Kazuki just can't fight it anymore. But he's also still very frustrated and his way of communicating with Sion in the first place is built on the basis of trying to mutually steamroll each other, so they constantly butt heads. Kazuki has been quite influenced by Mikado and his desire to, y'know, see Sion EXPRESS HIMSELF that he's just out and out pushing and being invasive and things. Wh...ich backfires. And he feels like that even though Sion can see through him, he doesn't really GET Kazuki nonetheless.
I think the recent thread might've helped a lot though idk what do you think, I just sort of spewed feelings.